Hitchhiker

I've always imagined what it feels like to be alone in space. I've always been fascinated by its lack the lack of air, the possibility that you will run out of oxygen.

It's been said that if creatures that live in 1 atm pressure -- like us --- will explode when our skins are exposed to the vacuum of space. Creatures that live thousands of feet below sea level suffer the same fate when they are taken to our altitude, because their bodies are designed to "fight" the crushing depths--and when there is no external pressure to "fight", they explode.

Some research say that we won't pop when exposed to vacuum. But still, being in space would be very dangerous to our bodies because of the constant radiation beaming from everywhere.

When I was a kid I have this constant fear of being alone in space.

What if the world was destroyed and I was inside a car, and then the car was able to protect me from all the explosion. Back then, I didn't know that cars weren't airtight. I thought I would have to wait for until I consume all the oxygen trapped inside the car.

What if I was an astronaut and my connection to the shuttle was severed by some stray meteorite. How long would it take for a person to suffocate? How would it feel like to die from suffocation---being able to breathe, yet not even your strongest inhale would help your dear life.

What if you were able to survive in a space suit or inside your car in space for more than a day, and the sun starts tugging on you, burning you with it's 5 million degree Celsius tongues of fire?

At that temperature, I don't think you'd still be alive even if you're still hundreds of miles away from the sun's surface.

...or if you live long enough to be sucked up by a black hole, crushing you with its near infinite gravity... how does it feel like to be crushed by gravity, and to be in a place where even light is enslaved by the immense gravity..crushing you into a less than microscopic point in space and time.

what if?

When the music stops

It's 3 in the afternoon. It's Saturday, 28th of October. Imbis na magpractice, eto ako nagbblog. Hindi ako magugulat kung wala na namang aattend mamaya (lagi namang walang umaattend). Kung meron mangpumunta, ang pupunta lang naman ay yung mga hindi ko na kailangan pang turuan. Sayang ang effort sa pagpapractice, kaya eto nakahiga na lang ako at nag-iinternet (malamang yun din naman ang ginagawa ng members ngayon---or worse, yun ang ginagawa nila habang nandoon ako at naghihintay ng members para sa practice)

Kung ihahalintulad ko ang choir namin sa isang bansa, pwede kong ikumpara ito ngayon sa Pilipinas:

Puno ng mga taong puro na lang reklamo, pero wala namang kumikilos. Mangati lang ang ilong, excuse na yun para hindi umattend.

Noong una, akala ko ako lang ang may problema. Masyado lang ba talaga akong masungit o nakakatakot o pangit tumugtog? I'm always trying to be nice sa mga bagong members---pero walang nangyari. Sinubukan kong magpractice ng mabuti---wala rin.

Nakakatamad na talaga. Ubos na ang pasensiya ko. Pero hindi ako tumutugtog para sa kanila. Tumutugtog ako para sa misa. Tumutugtog ako para sa Diyos at para sa mga taong nagsisiba. Nakakalungkot nga lang, kasi wala akong kasama.

Kumakanta sila para:

• sa barkada
• magkaroon ng upuan habang nasa misa.
• para lang masabing choir member sila

"Gustong mag-serve?"--- are you kidding? ipagpapalit nila ang Diyos sa sine, liga ng basketball, inuman, atbp.

Ito ang gustong magserve:

• Kahit umuulan, pupunta.
• Kahit pagod sa trabaho, assignment, pag-aaral, etc, pupunta
• kahit may kagalit/katampuhan sa grupo, pupunta pa rin

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I want to teach a lot of songs to this group. Too bad they do not want to be taught.

Courses I would have taken if I was immortal

• Computer Science - Being a programmer is like playing god. You create things out of nothing. It's a magical experience IMO.
• Mathematics - math is THE universal language. If we discovered alien life forms, our languages may not be similar but our computations will. They'd have an idea of the mathematical constants and stuff that we use here---for sure.
• Robotics - Who wouldn't want to build giant robots and stuff. Unfortunately, at this current age, when you say "robotics" the thought usually entails a robotic arm... just the arm.
• Astronomy - This has been my dream since I was a kid. I'd often lie on my back looking at the stars, imagining myself falling to the infinite sky. I'd be dead long before I reach the bottom of that sparkly pit.
• Physics (Theoretical, Experimental, and Astrophysics) - There's still a lot that we don't know about the world around us---not to mention the world above us.
• Chemistry - the wonders of the inner space is just as amazing as the outer space.
• Marine Biology - I find marine creatures way more fascinating that terrestrial ones...specially those that live in depths that could crush our toughest machines
• Architecture / Industrial Design / Industrial Eng'g - I love well designed stuff. I love those "simple touch(es)" that could make or break a gadgets usability. e.g.: computer mouse with grooves that perfectly fits a hand, well-researched/experimented screen size (like the iPhone's), tiny grooves in a camera that makes it easier to hold on to it---stuff like that.
• Psychology/Psychiatry/Neurology - For me, the brain is the most awesome part of the human body. It's the single part that defines a human being.
• Food Technology - food. nuff' said.
• Agriculture - This is one of my oddities. I want to develop an efficient way of farming.
• Genetics - What if we could genetically modify trees that can grow to any shape we wanted? Could we make houses from trees? Can we start "Planting our houses"? ---this is just one of the amazing possibilities of genetics that came to my mind.
• Creative writing - because I hate writing... duh.
• Fine Arts / Conservatory of Music - again, duh.
• Marketing / Business Administration - I've always wanted to make my own business. I have some ideas in mind, but I don't know how to start and where to start. Among the other courses I've written here, THIS is the one that I'm most likely to actually take within 2 or 3 years.
• Archaeology / Anthropology - When I was a kid, I've always been amazed by prehistoric creatures -- forget dinosaurs --- I think 3-meter wide dragonflies and bus-sized great white sharks are more freaking amazing. I'm also amazed by the movement of the continents throughout the different geological periods.
• Ethical Hacking - this is the second course that I'm most likely to take in the future. You can compare ethical hacking to Constructive Criticism -- you hack to expose vulnerabilities that needs improvement.
• Philosophy - I actually came close to studying this course instead of Computer Science. This is the one course that could explain everything, teach you everything.

First day funic

I've been saying this for about three years now...sabi ko, pangarap kong mapuntahang work yung pagttraining... FInally it came true. The first half of today was awkward. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how things work----heck, I didn't even know how to do the things that I was about to teach.

To add up to my worries, the people I needed for me to setup my first lesson were all on leave, as if it was orchestrated to be so.

Akala ko dati makakatulong yung training ko sa pagtuturo sa choir sa pagtuturo ko sa work, pero iba pala... Iba na may hawak kang marker at nagsusulat sa whoteboard. Pero pagdating naman nung hapon kahit papaano umayos na naman yung flow ng pagtuturo ko. I tried to avoid telling my students na first time ko lang.

Buti na lang din pala at nagkataon na may nakipagswap sa [supposedy] 5-days na training ko---dahil incidentally, meron siyang defense bukas.

Just when I thought everything was against me, It turns out that it was all for the better.

God move in mysterious ways---parang kanta lang.

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