Zen

You don't look for zen. That's what a Buddhism book tells me.
The more you look for it, the harder it will be for you to find it.

I've been searching for that peaceful state of mind ever since I was in High School. I read a lot of psychology and philosophy books. I even read the psychology books that my brother used in college. (He's a psych Major).

These past few days, I've been neglecting my search for it...and oddly enough, this is when it showed up to me. Right now I'm feeling so impervious from verbal harm. Even if I know someone out there is badmouthing our group of friends [for some issue which I would not discuss here], I'm feeling fine---I was even laughing when I heard what s/he had to say. Being hypersensitive, this is something new for me.

Now I can really say,
"You could turn off the sun, but I'm still gonna shine!"